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Um, Instead of contacting everyone Ill just post it.
And yes to answer your question Sarah J. it is for family too.
Aprilmarcheson
thats the new one.
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[04 Jan 2005|08:52pm] |
New Journal, IM me or Email or whatever if you want it.
Byee
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[12 Nov 2004|07:07pm] |
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Hello,
Umm..Haha I suck.I had a mocha freeze today, and nothing else til about 2 o'clock. So when I walked I felt sick and shaky. Lol. It was scary. Then I made ramen. I was sick. Ew
So anyways, lifes been going okayish. A bunch of drama that I managed to avoid suprisingly. I found out Dan is my friend! I thought he disliked me. I was all sad cause hes such an awesome person. High school is going well, Im doing a pretty good job of focusing on class, not social stuff. And I brought up my social studies grade.
So anyways, thats life. Boring as hell. But hey, Marcus made me post. Cause hes a whore<3.
Love,
Ben
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[21 Oct 2004|06:57pm] |
physicalxoneness: "Ok, this bush is going to be our little secret. And if you tell anyone, that the bush is there ... I will hunt you down and cut you"
Ooh man I love Family Guy.
Hellooo, Umm. I cant think of anything to really type, but Marcus will most likely devour my soul if I dont.
Umm.. I have to sell these wierd little candy sticks to get to Japan this summer. Its crazy. Im goin cheaper than everyone else selling them. Mrs. Opper was talking about Economy of Scale when I mentioned it. Belle is growing so fast, its crazy. Shes adorable.
I get to go to my sisters for the weekend, im super excited about it. Imma bring my playstation 2 and play..Wellll im just realizing I have little interesting to say. Sooo Bye<3
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| Entry: Tomorrow, can we finally love eachother? |
[27 Sep 2004|07:15pm] |
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Marcus told me to post! So I am! Hurray?
Hah, Alot has happened, I got a kitten last week. Ill post pictures soon, promise. Her name is Belle. Shes black and white, I love it. Lolol
Sooo hey! Its freshman slaughter week in school, and im being my normal stupid self by taunting people who could most likely pound me to a...a...something flat. Coming up to seniors and saying: Happy freshman slaughter week, moron! and grinning for them. Its oh so fun.
Im making alot of LiveJournal Icons. Im glad I moved to LJ. DeadJournal is so stupid. I mean..no offense to any who use it, it just seems like...Rebellious for the sake of being obnxious. Like taking a really cool idea and trying to make fun of it using the same concept and program. Theres my rant for the day.
I have a new band that I like. The King of Convenience...or maybe its inconvienance. Hah I dont remember.
My ex-girlfriend has a new boyfriend. His name, no one knows, but hes 17. I honestly think shes looking for trouble, but I know shes just expecting me to say something out of jealousy, seeing as how last week she was asking me out again, and this week she's found someone else. Kind of slutty, ne? Ah well, im expecting he'll rape her.
For those of whom Angela has told you that I believed a fake rumor and alsot cheated on her. Heres my story, believe whatever the hell you want though.
Angela had been avoiding me for about a month. I was doing all the work in our relationship, if shes aware of that or not, it doesnt matter to me. Its a pretty crappy feeling to feel unloved by someone you really cared about.. so anyways. Katie and Cayla tell me some news. Apparently Angela, during school, was bragging to Katie, about having kissed the son of her moms work friend, 4 times during spring break.When they finally told me about it, I took a few days and confronted angela. Heres the sequence of her actions
1. Denied it
2. Told me it was 1 kiss on cheek (right after I was informed of the fact that it was 4)
3. She didnt even want him to do that much
4. She tells me it never happened and she was making it up for attention and to annoy Katie.
My response to that? I dont care if she kissed him or not. I dont anymore. She lied to me at LEAST 5 times about this. The fact that she was willing to just blindly throw around rumors as if she should be proud of backstabbing her boyfriend.
So..I tried to get past it with her, but I just couldnt stand even looking at her knowing she valued our relationship AND friendship that little. THEN she has the nerve to suspect me of cheating on her with Katie. Which I promise you I didnt do. So I broke up with her. I had no choice, and im glad I did it too.
And now were to this school year (go ahead and scroll past this if its boring Lol) She comes up and acts like nothing happened, were still super buddy buddy. Then im given a note by her telling me how hard this summer was on her, and how much pain I caused and that I should look in my heart and see if I still love her. I havent even responded to her, I dont even want to like...think about how pathetic it is, that she thinks that she is in more pain than I am, when she cheated (or lied whichever you think) on me in the first place.
And now, this week, shes dating some 17 year old guy. And I would be happy for her, had she not tried so desperately to make me care. And I do care, because its annoying that she thinks she can win me back by dangling a guy that may or may not exist infront of me saying shes with him. But, and im sure this is actually gonna sound really dumb seeing as how im ranting, im not jealous. Im annoyed that shes so desperate, but I really dont feel jealousy.
Katyln came up to me and said "So you dumped Angela because of a rumor someone started?" and I said to her "Did angela forget to mention who started the rumor?"
THAT is why im annoyed, she is telling people lies AGAIN. Saying I broke up with her over a rumor, rather than a lie. she even told people I cheated on her with Katie.
Its low. and Im ranting, so im gonna shut up.
Hah, wow, that was...ammusing. -Happy Land again-
Jackie Drew Morgan and Alex all visited me last week. It was really fun, I got to hang out with all my older friends. I miss them..too bad we have no classes together.
Mmmm Spagetti, im going to go now! Lol.
Sincerely,
Gum Wrapper in your glove compartment?
P.S. Sorry if I was a little hard on Angela in your eyes. Lol
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[08 Sep 2004|11:48am] |
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Hello! Woohoo, im happy now. Marcus made me 10 or so Icons and I cant choose which to use right now. Hehe. School starts soon. Im pretty excited. AND IM NOT POSTING me schedule, because Im too damn lazy to find it. Emilys birthday is past. I got her 4 graphic novels. Comic Party 1&2, Nadeisco 1, and Nuku Nuku...Dont ask about the last one.
Im gonna use the Jimmy Eat World Icon because the little boy is a cutie and Im going to pinch his cheek. Heh. All the sudden all my family on the jenkins side got Livejournals, so now!!! im going to make a community and hope they all join, then we can keep in touch. Yeah, im a dork, but it suits me.
Armon came back for those who were the slightest bit worried from last entry. I love his name, its so cool. I dont even know how to pronounce it because I dont know where the name is from.
i got Kriner for a japanese teacher. -scowl- I wanted Watkins. Really bad. All my friends got her. Bastards..
Oh well, something tells me ill be learning alot about etiquete (spelled wrong for your enjoyment..I think) in his class.
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[27 Aug 2004|08:50pm] |
Something has left my life
And I don't know where it went to
Somebody caused me strife
And it's not what I was seeking
Didn't you see me, Didn't you hear me
Didn't you see me standing there
Why did you turn out the lights
Did you know that I was sleeping
Say a prayer for me
Help me to feel the strength I did
My identity, has it been taken
Is my heart breakin, on me
All my plans fell through my hands
They fell
Through my hands, on me
All my dreams, it suddenly seems
It suddenly seems
Empty
Sorry for not posting..not much to talk about.
Armon seems to be gone..I have only gotten to talk to him once this week, and everyone is so worried..I really care about him and Im so sick of seeing him depressed.
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[17 Aug 2004|12:42pm] |
Uuh..I HAVE A LIVEJOURNAL?
Its been like..almost a month since ive written. And for that I am sorry. A lot has happened since then. My grandfather died a few weeks ago. A lot of little things that im not remembering right now. Hehe.
We went to holland last week.Just sort of a trip to get away. They had this really old cat there. I swear she looked kind of like a lemur cause he back was hunched up so high. Emily said she looked like a raccoon sort of. Anyways, they had to have her put down cause things were just getting out of control. It was the right choice.
Then on the way home from holland justin calls to say he came to check on the animals and my Rabbit is dead. Blah...Fun week for animals isnt it? -Sarcasm- Its not like I hole justin responsible. I dont mean to sound like I do in that sentance up there. Its not justins fault, nor is it anyones elses. I just am sad.
Oh well, emily is about to drag me to krogers so Im going to go
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[25 Jul 2004|06:59pm] |
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Had a special church service today. Heh. Im not usually so hot on church or anything but they had Justin (Sister's Boyfriend), My uncle steve, and his friend Matt playing. Piano, Bass, Banjo, and Drums. It was pretty damn awesome. The words I didnt think id ever say: I had fun in church. Heh. Dad had a slideshow running in the back and it had a picture of me making a rather odd face expression, I laughed outloud. Then wanted to hit him. but I held back. Lol
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[21 Jul 2004|03:41am] |
Have you ever had a celebration, maybe a birthday party or something, where everything seems really good and really happy. Til someone says something and its taken the wrong way? Or maybe someone thinks they werent invited cause they werent wanted when actually, it was just that you didnt think they wanted to come? What do you do? do you just..let them know what you really was shooting for? or do you let them figure it out for themselves, or do you just say "screw it..I give up.."
Im sure I made it obvious enough.Oh well...I tried the first one..and I tried the 2nd. so I guess im on the 3rd
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Have you ever had a celebration, maybe a birthday party or something, where everything seems really good and really happy. Til someone says something and its taken the wrong way? Or maybe someone thinks they werent invited cause they werent wanted when actually, it was just that you didnt think they wanted to come? What do you do? do you just..let them know what you really was shooting for? or do you let them figure it out for themselves, or do you just say "screw it..I give up.."
Im sure I made it obvious enough.Oh well...I tried the first one..and I tried the 2nd. so I guess im on the 3rd
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[20 Jul 2004|04:18am] |
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Nothing really happened today, like most other days. Mom went to ohio to see the folks again. And yeah, Im sick of things. Nothing seems to be changing, it seems like it, but its the same load of crap with another title.
Guess thats life isnt it?
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[19 Jul 2004|03:14pm] |
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The first star I see may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So let's wait for one more.
The time such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful but not sure how it goes.
You can loose yourself in your courage.
The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.
This is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself by happy now then when?"
If not now when?
When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?
Close my eyes and believe wherever you are, an angel for me.
Things are doing a little better now. I go to watch them spread my grandfathers ashes thursday. And they figured out the whole suicide murder. Still a little freaked out by that, but im moving on. As my best friends said to me, i cant get over it, but i can move on.
So yeah, emily is doing new stunts on her horses, dad is freaking out thinking shes gonna hurt herself doing gymnastics on a horse. But its pretty safe as hard as that to believe.
So once again, life falls back into place for a while.
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It'll be on the news anyways so I might as well say it. A guy from our church went mentally insane last night. They found him passed out in his house with a gun, they found his wife, shot and killed in the shed in the backyard. The next morning the police came but he had locked himself in his house...yeah. He killed himself. God, this is so messed up... Its unnverving, I dont even know what to feel, anger, depression, to be frightened? They were both really nice people, what the hell happened??
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Woke up around 10o'clock sat in bed a bit. Then I came downstairs and im told my grandpa died.. yeah, its been 12 hours and it still hasnt soaked in I think. I miss him already..
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[11 Jul 2004|12:01am] |
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Hello,
It was a pretty fun day actually. I woke up early and went to a Celtic Festival, it was awesome. Im glad I chose to go instead of sit at the computer all day. Much like how I spent the REST of the day...heh. Anyways, they did a sheep herding presentation, the dogs were having an off day cause of the heat, but it was still awesome to watch them.
As we left we stopped by a merchant stand. My sister bought a tin whistle, and I this awesome tapestry/blanket. Its so well designed. Ill probably let emily use it sometime if she wants since it has horses and she liked it too.
So I came home and played Ragnarok for a while, kind of got sick of it for a while too.. Anyways, Terry was kind of upset. So I tried to cheer him up. I hope I did, anyways, we found out some really disturbing news about the guild in Ragnarok (If you havent heard me ramble on about this game before, you may not wanna ask)..So Rachel, Courtney, Terry and I were all really upset. Blah. Terry kept saying how glad he was we were all friends. It boosted my self esteem a little. heh.
So that was my day.
Gnight Romania.
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[09 Jul 2004|04:11pm] |
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Woohoo, changed my layout. The image is actually 1024x768 but I made the image so both worked without looking a little blank. If youre curious, then look at it by changing resolution. On second thought, its not that great, dont bother.
Hehe and I made a new avatar, I wanted bebop SOMEWHERE, so I had to make an avatar for it.
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[09 Jul 2004|01:50pm] |
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Damn it, I keep losing inspiration to write. I need something to remind me to write. Not much has happened around here I guess, my grandpa is in an extended care sort of thing Everyone there is a little insane, theres one person who goes around asking where her room is and showing up in other peoples rooms thinking its hers, theres one that looks at the ground and cries all day (Unnerving as hell) and one that pokes your shoulder and makes buzzy noises. Its messed up.
Sara comes back from P.A., We havent hung out much lately, I miss her alot. I did however see Katie a couple days ago, I was a total wierdo about it cause I had never been to her house, she painted me nails (...Im going to kill you katie) I figured shed hurt me if I didnt let her. Besides as she says: Real men cry, wear pink, and paint their nails. Call me suzy.
Marcus is never online anymore.:( Which sucks big time.We used to talk all the time, GET ONLINE MARCUS!
Umm yeah, see? Nothing new. I REALLY want to go horse back riding all the sudden, we took the horses swimming, oh man. It was so awesome.
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